Emptying our mind of evil thoughts

Most of us don’t really consciously audit our thoughts and discard the old and useless in the way we regularly delete the many messages and e-mails that pile up in our laptop or phones. That is quite normal, I guess. As most of us do not see ourselves as either office equipment or mobile devices.

But if one considers that even these devices need to be regularly updated with apps to keep them relevant and that bandwidth is always finite – then surely even we humans will have absolutely no problem in understanding the need to update, upgrade and most importantly throw out that which have become useless in our life.

When we see change for the better as just function of throwing out old and bad habits and buying into a better way to live, play and work, then it is easy to understand why it pays dividends every day to find quiet time and audit our thoughts to enable us to lead happier lives and get on the path to leading a purpose driven life.

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‘Everyday I make it a point to set aside some quiet time to think about whether what I did, said or thought the day before is the person I want to become. I find that when I do just that, I am more mindful of my actions along with understanding my strengths and weaknesses. I happen to believe this daily habit has been very good for me. As at times, I do say, do and think of thoughts which I believe could be considerably improved on – thoughts, actions and deeds which i say to myself, ‘maybe that is not the best way to put my point across.’ and its not unusual for me to right that wrong the following day.’

This is necessary for me, if I don’t want to end up doing something I will regret later. For example there is this businessman who stays quiet close to me. He once poisoned all my trees over a disagreement. Whenever I see this man, he talks to me as if nothing has happened…as if he’s done nothing…and it’s really just another day in paradise – I find this form of humoring especially offensive and there have been many times when I have had to just walk away. As if I don’t, I know myself very well – I am likely to do something that I will end up regretting for the rest of my life. My point is not everything can be forgiven. Not for me. So this is one way to make peace and move on as best as one can.

As for that man, I still dream of hacking him to pieces with my parang from time to time. I can see it in my minds eye, he’s in some seafood restaraunt. When I walk him, his friends run away. He raises his hands to avoid the blows. I cut off his fingers and hands. Then I drive it deep into his stomach and push it right up to the hilt….. what scares me most about this dream is when I wake up. I feel very rested and satisfied. There is a slight lag when I wake up and I actually believe, I am going to the electric chair for what I just did….but like I said, I just feel incredible satisfied and even happy. So when I talk about improving myself, I realize, I still have a very long way to go. I reckon these are things you don’t normally read in self improvement books….but that is just the way it is with me. I am not where near a guru, but I like to believe I work hard to make myself a better person every day.’